sunlitRose

and am i finally coming to terms with what i have been told for so long?ive tried my best to be a better person so that i could have you in my life, but you throw me away, again and again.i treat you with respect and kindness and im tossed aside like a broken toy.you once told me a friendship like ours could never end, well i guess you were wrong because you have not been a friend.im realizing that it just cant be the same, and soon ill just be a distant memory.im not trying with all my might any longer, for if i matter you will make it known.if ever you need me, ill be here waiting to mend the bond we once had.

through it all, youve been here by my side.through the pain, the tears, and my blood curdling screams.and not once did you ever think to just walk out on me.putting me, before you, i dont understand why.how grateful i am to have met you because i wouldnt have made it all this way without you.even in my darkest times, you hold me close, trying to soothe me and ease my incredible pain.you whisper in my ear how everything will be ok and believe in me with all that you are.even when i grow weak when ive come so far, you keep pushing me on.you give me such strength, you cant begin to comprehende.i thank you and all the others who have helped me so

once that bird soared in the sky so high, nothing could possibly cease her flight.but notafter too long, she began to burn.her bright feathers soon smoldered away and she fell to the ground...nothing more than ashes lying in the field.but then one day, the ashes were gone and a feather lay in its place.the pheonix has been reborn and flew again, now stronger than ever

i don't care what happened in the past, what matters is who you are, here and now.i know the very depths of your heart and what i see is amazing.i can see youre changing, growing stronger each day.though you may be weak at times, i know you can do it.a peaceful fighter, i can see that you are.so take your battles day by day and soon you'll overcome

laying on my back, gazing up at those gorgeous midnight stars, it feels so right.im at peace as the breeze brushes my skin and soothes my mind.i gaze at those stars and think of what they appear to be.theyre holes in that perfect sky that give you just a tiny glimpse of heavens light.it fills my heart with hope that even when youre surrounded by a world of dark, theres always a light breaking through.

the thump of the bass gets stronger and stronger.i feel it in my heart and it soon replaces its beat.it becomes the ryhthm of my movement and im lost in the music.it takes me away and the song is all i hear.the lyrics soon slip from my mouth along with its melody.i cant help but sing as i dance.ans as the music gets louder, my voice pushes out a little more.i become lost in this song and this ryhthm until im no longer me, but a part of this song.

i know ive made my mistakes, but so have you.i dont hold this against you becuase thats what humans do.we make mistakes and we suffer the pain.we forgive but dont neccessarily forget.you dont have to forget, but weve have to move on.we can either hang on to the painful times in the past, or move on and live life.theres people in the world starving and dieing, why should we hold such resent?lets move on from this horrible mess and start over in time.

'sometimes goodbye is a second chance' and it really is.you may lose something so dear and neccessary to your heart, but you can move on and have something else that you wouldnt give up for the world.you just have to say goodbye and cease your tears.you need to look at what you have.be grateful that you still have that friend by your side.relationsips come and go. but nothing can break the bond of a friendship.its something so special and strong, its a beautiful thing.so even though its hard, say goodbye because it might be so much better in the end.you can say goobye to one part of your life and hello to another.so dont dwell on the sorrowf

just a little louder now, for my ears have not yet began to bleed.louder, louder!i know you can do so much more.come on now, im not crying hard enough.you blow out your lungs with that screeching voice, where i blow out mine with my gut renching sobs.jsut a little more, just a tad bit more.oh no, dont stop.i love this pain.shatter my heart wont you and destroy all of me.

and when you ask, are you okay, ill respond with same little phrase.two words spoken with heartache, but you dont care to listen.look at me, look at me!cant you see?look in my eyes and tell me what it is you see.can you see my pain and tears deep within my soul?can you see through my hopeless eyes and look at the broken girl who dwells inside?look me dead in the face, is this the same girl you once raised?but you couldnt tell, you wont even look.walk out on me like every other and let me cry myself into a miserable slumber.